Could I please make a request?

Could I ask someone to please direct me back on the right path?

I seemed to have lost my way somewhere along the way.

“Sorry Sir, can you, could you point me in the right direction?”

“Mam, how do you do, I got a tad lost, could you find me my life again?”

If only life were that easy.

I would like to feel alive again.

I would like to be part of the crowd again. I can’t help it.

I am so very tired of shining and smiling. So very tired of trying to remain positive and to not allow any negative thoughts and emotions to slither into my soul.

Somehow, the harder I try, the more lost I seem.

Everyone else seems so happy. I try to be happy myself and I am happy for them.

I want to go out and not worry about the world, about the money, about the food.

I just want to enjoy. But I can’t, can I?

It’s a small tiny request, or is it?

Where am I? What am I doing? Where am I going?

I used to have plans. I had short term plans and I had my proper 5 year plans.

It’s all come crashing down on me. How? Why? When?

I need someone to guide me. I don’t want advice and I don’t want sympathy.

I just want you to say, “Go there. Over there. Someone there will tell you what to do. They will show you the way.”

Any more of this unemployment uselessness, and I might just drop dead.

Everyone with me now… *HAIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*

Help.